words don’t matter.
But I wasn’t thinking about the past.
I was thinking about one thing.
My father.
Every night inside, I had pictured him in the same place: sitting in his old armchair by the window, the light from the porch lamp washing over the familiar lines of his face. In my head, he was always waiting. Always alive. Always holding the version of me that existed before the courts, before the headlines, before the world decided I was guilty.
I didn’t stop to eat. I didn’t call anyone.
